Prem kahaani!

It’s been around 2 years now since I have gone through a relationship thingy! I had never been into a true relationship before that, all were time pass or just randomly ongoing stuffs, plus points were I have always been with girls before never did sex for which I kinda like myself really much though ;)

Well my love story the original one was pretty interesting. The guy happened to be my one of the best friend we were friends since we were chasing after the admission thingy for college or university, we met many times did hangouts too we had a very sweet relationship of care and trust and of course of Friendship in between each other so yeah it was the best feeling I had in my whole feeling before it obviously LOL!
Well well we dint as in both of us never expected that we’d both go into a gay relationship after sometime despite of the fact we both were so called straights we both had girlfriends too at a phase of life we shared the same dating sites and timings with of course different khawateen (Girls) so yeah it was kinda completely unexpected thingy for both of us.

Umm, I remember it was June of 2009, he had a breakup with her girlfriend whom he loved a hell lot, khair I gave him my shoulder to cry upon and I supported him like friends do actually! It’s been a month after his breakup his father passed away (May his soul RIP) and once again he was so messed up and hr would be ofcourse that I literally don’t have words for it and once again it was the only me according to him who had supported him to the best of everything, however daily we used to talk and talk for hours and I mean it! I use to text him cheer him up gifts and stuffs, in no time we really came close to each other, as in yes we were close before that too but the feeling now had become more obvious and different one too. He used to call me by a nick “Paro” and I used to call him Devdaas! LOL. We went so close to each other that a day that have been passed away without talking to each other looked like hell on earth scene. We made it to each other many times being a friend we both knew that what we were doing for each other is far beyond the limits of friendship and the feeling were bit different too as in what normal friends have. Apparently I’d say that we both were in a phase of life in which we both were trying to ignore the feelings of what we had for each other because of the fear of world I GUESS! Khair days passed on and literally passed on we talked normally and shared the stuffs.

One fine day I got a call from devdaas saying that he loves me and he loves me a hell lot, at a first glance I dint understand at all what the hell was going around seemed like a prank to me at that time, I got so happy that I literally jumped high in the sky but a thinking came up just in mind at that time “That what if this is a joke what if I get insulted for it afterwards and all that” I decided to say that we are friends it’s been a 2 min war in between inner me, me and my brain and ended up in a word “janu I love you too!” OMG what I have just said shit I mean a BIG shit I was so confused that I couldn’t even understand what’s up actually LOL!

Khair we talked for about an hour in which I couldn’t even reply to him properly my voice was so going up and down that I had a feeling of going faint at any sec. Hahaha what a feeling was it! I still love it

He came to me at my house few days ago the call I just mentioned he sat near to me on sofa in my room he talked so different this morning k I dint even believe that is it the real him where was he hiding this part of him all these years. Khair he asked me to kiss him I was like WTH as in “Kia bakwass hai yeh” He said come on I am not in a mood of joke. I said “comeon are you sure of what you are saying as in have you became mad or something” he said “nahi I want a kiss”. I kissed on his cheeks well he kinda replied what are you afraid of jazzy ?? Why are you not showing me that you love me. I said come on we be friends and good one too. He challenged me that I cant kiss him on lips I was so feeling my insult that I had kissed him on his lips. OMG I just did that khair the kiss was just of 2 sec I guess and I apologized to him what he did was unbelievable he hold me tightly and kissed me for like friggin 10 mins he didn’t even stopped to retake his breath or so, I was confused but more than that I enjoyed the kiss because it was my first kiss attached with so true feelings.

After the awkward happening we fought for what happened we didn’t talk for about two days I had to switch of my cell to ignore him on the third day he came up to my house and asked me up for the reason and a kiss again LOL! I was going so madly in love with him k bus it seemed like an end LOL!

We were in a relationship for about 6 months and trust me the best 6 months of my life. He gave me the happiness the fights the romance the love and all other things too ;)
Apparently he arranged many candle light dinners for me too. I still remember we couldn’t even dine or sleep without talking to each other we loved each other madly and I mean it! Small fights were always there but they never became any issue as far as I know. Umm after 6 months he started to act weirdly he started to initiate never ending fights which were really frustrating! Though I did my best to not let him go but nature had decided something else for us and it was supposed to be harsh atleast for me, khair i broke up with him after hell lots of insults. He tried to call me several times but it was an end for me I had changed my number! After break up I came to know from a common friend of us that he was already in a relationship with his groupmate which happens to be a female too! It was harsh for me too khair he apologized from me after 4 months of break up I did forgive him and he told me about his relationship and told me that he was in a relationship when he was committed with me as well!

Anyhows it was an end and never has started again atleast from my side and I am happy being like that afterwards!
 he gave me a good experience and the time I have had with him was the best in itself! SO yeah I am happy thinking the things like that =)

After that not a single time I had the same feelings I used to have for him! I don’t know what I did was good or bad! Any ideas ??