Life.. An unanswered Question!!

Life is very very uncertain. I mean no one actually knows what's coming in future we as human beings are very weak we surrender infront of our fate.. Now I know there are people who try to fight for their ownselves or their lives but they end up doing compromises on their pre decided fate one way or other.

This happened to me all the time I mean I  could brag all about myself claiming that I make my own decisions and I make my own destiny but that's so absurd of me probably idiotic too if I take a look at my past everything in my life was decided by someone sitting above the skies writing my future changing my situations, people around me, putting me through challenges. I thought I never had the power to confront any but they all passed and put down time to time.

This post isn't about me this is actually about a friend who just turned 17 couple of months ago and on my utmost request he went for blood donation the guy is very healthy very beautiful and lives a healthy life style there was absolutely no reason for me to know that he would be having any serious disease till the time blood reports came and he was been told that he is HIV positive.. Yes

Filthy truth he has a full life ahead of him but yet he is stuck with this thing for his life. His family doesn't really know but I wonder what'd happen when they'll know. This is what life does it changes everything in just a second and you can't really control anything leaving you very weak and vulnerable.

I'm there for him as a friend and trying to talk him through things but I'm helpless at a stage too. 

 However it's just a thought everyone no matter what age group or sexual orientation he falls in should get himself or herself tested so that he won't really play with other lives. 

We can be helpless for our misery but we can do things so that no one actually suffers through the misery we put them in.

Hugs!!

An opportunity

Couple of days ago I recieved a mail from a very famous school in USA of cullinary arts that I'm been selected in the class of 2015 for masters. I have never actually thought about this thing applying there was totally random tand now since I'm selected I don't know what to do next.

I asked my family and they want me to go live my dream and settle myself. America can be a ticket of success for me but if I go there's a high probability that I won't come back to Pakistan and settle there that means thousand of kilometres away from every relationship I've here in this country.

This opportunity makes me both happy and worried. I'm confused and I'm scared.

Let's see where this boat floats too..

Lost in Dark and it's an addiction

Over the years since I've started knowing my sexual orientation I've always condemned the part where one has to be gay and be all whore because sexual orientation has nothing to do with how one reacts to booty calls. I heard a friend once saying 'Since sex is becoming more easier to get love is becoming rare' and that is somehow very very realistic. 

This past year I've been experiencing things I've never actually had the privilege to do before the time. I've broken up with someone I've loved I've been in a dark phase where I've slept with a lot of people just to calm my body down and shut my emotions off. Well that did work atleast temporarily till the time when I started having regrets for whatever I've done. This year has however been a total surprise for me maybe because I got to know some of very very beautiful people who're now friends they don't judge but they always stand besides me.

Mid this year I opened up infront of my cousins and the wives of them (Bhabis) and they totally support me and we are close way better then we were before this. 

These past few days I've been in immense pressure because of the ongoing troubles in between me and my family. Seems Like they don't like me anymore or something like that. I least care about them on the other hand I don't want to screw my relation with the people who are close to me. I'm totally scared and hurt and lost basically.

Being all in this mess I've started talking to a guy 'Eros' who has been a great help for me and after years Im on the verge of finding the possibilities out. So that's something I'm not so sure about either there's this volcano of emotions running through my veins with anxiety, uncertainty and chill of horor. Maybe someday I'll find my way out.

Till then wish me luck guys hugs!!

New Life, new surprises

Lately, what happened was that I broke up with Aron. YES! WE DID. The most disguising thing ever expected to happen but sometimes you are just helpless inorder to make things according to you. Aron get married on the mid of the last month and we decided that we may never be able to cope up with his marital affairs and issues so i just said that its better for both of us to quit. Well it was definitely a very hard thing to accept and decision to made. However, we just did and i am glad that i could able to pass on the decision too. So, we broke up on some handsome terms. We are friends now, but like what sort of i still couldn't imagine of LOL!

We broke up i moved to karachi to have my part of space, I needed time to catch up myself which was lost in the myth of my x love story! I was extremely depressed and broken up, which ofcourse was visible. My friends in karachi understood the part and they got success in letting me understand of what is needed to be done and that was that i should move ON now, which was again a very difficult decision for me knowing that i have given up so much before. But i understood and followed up by having random formal dates. But i felt no connection with any of them. There was a best friend of mine i might have discussed him in few old posts

Missed Thailand but Loving Karachi!

So here it goes i was devastated i was ruined messed up badly due to some of very recent happenings of my life.. I thought to give a kick up to my life thus decided to do what i usually do in these times I packed my bags up tightened my laces and here i reached karachi by january 13th! Wow what a warm welcome it was so much happened these days!

Yum Yum LOL! The friends here threw me a gig here by placing a dinner in the honor of me in village, all these hangouts are making me live again!
I am once again a bitch and seriously i am loving my this old look of mine!
Now that things are going like awesome ill be posting about my trip, hangouts and dates ;)
with time!
Till then

cheers and hugs


Jazzy Khaan!

Miracle or Destiny

Well, this post is solely dedicated to all of the newbees in love or those ladies who have found that there love is one sided. Well it seems that i can sense all of the insecurities and all of the issues you been facing in this thing. Honestly speaking I have been through this time as well apparently 5 months ago. Now when you are stuck in this stage you need to know one thing before making any decission and that is "that are you seriously in love with that guy?" secondly "Would you be able to move on?" and one more thing do you have a crush on him or is it love? Make yourself cleared about it. Love and crush well there is no specific difference between it or atleast this is what my perception is but if I may say something here i would say if you are in a relationship and it's not based on sex and it covers your other parts of life and that you know each others family you cry for each other you can sacrifice for each other and like that than surely you are in love the more you deny it the more you would fall and fall so its better to just accept it!
Well coming to me i have discussed my love story in previous posts and many of the regular follower of this blog they already do know about the fluctuations and indifference i have faced in this particular love.


Umm let me discuss a very recent update i got in my relationship after waiting for 7 freagin' months. I was on a date with aron on last friday we wanted to watch movie "Twilight" with each other but the thing was it hasnt been launched in Pakistan till now.. Now that we decided that we should talk and clear our certain issues so yes we made it upto Jamin Java Cafe DHA Lahore. On the way to defence i decided not to drive so it was Aron who was driving so that was again a positive thing for me. I got few red roses for him especially for this date. I gave it to aron and i took it back and i started touching his lips and face with that rose showing him the romantic side of me. He was getting it doing this particular thing i just put my head on aron's lap and aron kept on driving the car in which we were was auto transmission so yes it was easy for him to control the car through one hand, i grabbed his hand and I started kissing it and playing with it. With that i asked him that Marry me. Be my Wife! He said I already am your wife jazzy <3
I smiled and looked in his eyes, now we were here in DHA we sat in cafe and was clearing our complaints I asked aron that if he wants he can leave and kick me out. He said jazzy you can also do the same i said i can never even think of doing it. Umm cleared the issues really well. Now it was aron who for the first time till now expressed how much place i have in his heart where do I stand in his life without me his life would be miserable or so! Knowing that aron is a scorpion and expressing his feelings is really not his cup of tea so yes it was something i wasnt expecting but i heard it! His each word was like a healing spell for my broken heart!


After sacrificing a lot, not expecting anything in return being loyal to him i got my love. But yes if you guys can handle yourself in this road full of jumps, sorrows and misseries you sure can win your love!

And if not you should leave because it will break you more and more. but i must say the results you get here are matchless!


So cheers and stay focused ladies!!

Hugs

thinking to do something crazy..

I have been busy in things like i never thought i would ever be able to go that busy anywhere in my life but yes I became one..

I have been thinking and thinking like as one of the cheapos that I should be doing something creative and something extravagant and i should be focusing on any issue related to society on which I can do work. So in that deep thinking session i was collaborating all of my thinking capabilities and inner self on a mutual platform to get over some social issue. As love for Human rights is one of the thing which has taken and grown over me Insanely during all those years since i was a kid of merely 4 year old.. I love been an activist and doing or participating in the reason of becoming any sort of positive relation or change in society..

I have already done a research project on "Prostitutes  In Pakistan" back in late 2010 and on that research report a US based NGO started working in Pakistan for the welfare of those women who wanted to start there life by a new beginning and wanted to quit from this prostitute related work. Well I was really not alone whole team of HR commission was there to guide me, I had chosen that topic to work upon because i always thought that this is one sensitive topic people dont like to touch because of some of our cultural and maulana barriers. I faced many issues on working on this platform but yes i coped up well from them.

Now putting my Past experiences on one hand and an inspiration to do something untouched once again i asked one of my female friend whom i am open about my sexual orientation that on which topic i should work upon. She said "Are you up for some real messy fun?" I on a glance replied to her "*&#@ Yeah and what is going in your mind i can smell something is fishy here"  She said "Work on LGBT rights in Pakistan this is one right time for you to work on it or at least think on doing some work on it" I considering the fact that she happens to be straight and I mean she is a girl as well how would she think like that but inner me i loved that idea i told her "that YES i am gonna work on it but how would i do that there are People who are already working on that how would I make any difference in that, how can I make my idea unique in this so clustering phase of homosexuality" She replied that " You are good at writing, Write aware people teach 'em"
 
I took that as an idea to start with I asked few of my very close queer friends of mine that what do they think. Majority of them proposed me to write a story of my love life and focusing on some of the social issues among it I should make a movie on it or a play but make it on an artisitic approach, I started writing and i am still doing it. I met few people Ofcourse from my community and I asked them that what do they is there any possibility for me to give my idea or thinking a physical shape all of them already loved the idea because almost majority of us usually face the same dramatic issues likewise or so.. But they also warned me on the consequences or so and the consequences were more than practical too..

1. Even if I be able to write a story make a script how would i convince a producer to work on it? How would i bear the criticism on this movie? Would critics allow cinemas to put this movie on Air?
Funds? Actors? Duh

2. If I make a Play on it which is more feasible btw.. Still than i could face severe critism not only social pressure my family can leave me on knowing that i am doing things for LGBT rights most probably i can be sued in court for spreading this vulgarity or atleast thats what people would call this awareness to be.. And the list keeps going on.
Moreover who would fund it.. and who would support this messy thing?

3. I can write a book on it but i left that option already because in Pakistan people are not so fond of reading and spending on books and again i can face lawsuit on writing on major sensitive issue..

I am starting from scratch and yes i know one thing i wanna do work on this issue that is what i am sure upon i agree on buying all the issues too. There are people who are far more higher in both age and experience from me and i want them to advice me as much as they can and i want them to help me out in this particular thing!

With this Jazzy signing off till the next time!
 

What is love without madness

Yesterday I was watching a movie JISM 2 and I must say it was worth watching it. The whole movie concept story acting plus songs were great I really lived each scene of that movie while watching it. There was a dialogue in that movie which was spoken by the heroine of that movie Izna “Jo pagal naa kardey wo ISHQ hi kiya” translation “love without madness is nothing” and it was so God Damn touchy I mean she just have explained the word love. Love has to have madness in it you know certainly I don’t mean that become psycho in love or you know a killer or something but love has that power to change any human being to change his habits sometimes nature too. You know it always makes you crazy like you always want to give everything you have to you lover insanely you cant tolerate seeing your lover in pain or suffering you get tensed too you get hyper too. You get sincere with him loyal to him. You get physical and that gives you more internal satisfaction rather than physical pleasures whenever you are with him you feel like out of this world. All those kisses all those hugs you literally feel you are special for someone you just go with the flow the urge of spending time never comes to an end. You know even if your lover do hundred of mistakes and you know them all and you don’t tell him that you know you still feel like he is innocent and he is the one which is most precious to you.. You literally don’t say a word to him you tolerate all this alone and alone this is what Love is to give to sacrifice willingly for someone. That is all for today 

With This Jazzy signing off

Distance means nothing when you are everything

Lately i was surfing Facebook.. Suddenly i saw a picture there was a quote in it and i so loved it infact i had tears in my eyes on reading it.
 I found myself so attached to it i got so many things in my mind at that time so I just decided to write it out. So here was I, like you know we all are so familiar with a word "Love" but what is love? I have always thought of that I particularly am talking about the love which we Gay people have for their particular Boyfriends. I have witnessed many Gay couples who usually consider love only in bed or usually show love for each other by putting reckless sort of sanctions like possessiveness which is so not cool you see.. I mean what is love is it all about having sex or you know making your boyfriend a toy of yours asking him to give as much sacrifices for you to show his love for you.. But that look so inhumane and mean to me how could you be just like that. Love should be a feeling in between two persons the feeling which never make them feel alone which never make them feel sad about things which cheer them up at times
What if you love someone and he lives far away from you yes you can associate this phrase as Long Distance relationships many of us think like they don’t work simply because you cant make out with your guy and stuffs but I disagree on this point what Is the point of passing judgments over a single point of making out as in sex can help you make decisions on with whom to live or whom to leave that is so outdated concept. Well what I take from it is very simple If you love someone truly you love him of without any specific reasons you know why expect that he will give you back everything you are giving him you are giving him because of your own satisifaction and that too is a point for me I would live my whole life happily if ill come to know about the fact that I am being loved by my boyfriend and he takes me as his own and he thinks that I belong to him even that if he is sitting miles away or even if we are not able to talk at all I will still be very comfortable on the point. That is all I actually wanted to share alongwith this song

Love you guys already
With this Jazzy signing Off

Till next time

Love a new way of living Life....

Apologies for being away like this I wasnt feeling good these days. However i would try to come and post as much as i can as i have so much in my mind these days would utilize that all.

Now what was I here to Post, wanted to share that how much lucky I am how much blessed I am.. Blessed I am because i have that friends which love me to the extent i couldn't even imagined off! Blessed because i have finally got a person whom i loved the most Aron. I mean all these things at a same time i was over whelmed with happiness these days Allah has given me so many reasons to laugh to smile to share around.
The month of August came up with loads and loads of surprises for me. I for once thought that Aron dont like me at all and i had already decided that i wont go any more ill back out for his very own happiness but with all the big and hard efforts of some of our common friends on this eid i have come to know that he loves me truly he has already changed a lot for me the Change which is visible to me visible to everyone out there. The Guy who once was hating me or ignoring me is now approaching me after every second and this is not only because he wanted to this is because he knows that makes me happy he is giving me all the things i didn't even deserve to have! I am seriously blessed having aron. And its a promise that ill do whatever it takes to make him happy every way possible =)

With love to all
Jazzy Signing Off.. <3

The Guy who made me a human!

"You are best the way you are, nobody else on this earth could be like you, and that what makes you different from others" The words which make me realize that there are people in this world who actually love the real me the genuine me! Like i said earlier about the guy Adrian Khaan who always makes me special about being present around him. There is another guy here on my this ID (Jazzy Khaan) Who is on the real one as well *Winks* he really makes me feel out of this world Whenever i feel like i am tensed or something the guy feels it automatically and makes me feel better. I love him his everything and I mean it. He is sitting miles away from me yet always makes me feel like he is around me all the time. Sitting abroad all of his calls and texts are a really big support for me.

He is that cutie kid that every boy can dream of dating him or going physical with him well in my case i just want to eat his cheeks up while kissing lol! He is blessed with sweetness and what really makes me incline (in a positive way) towards him! Though there are many people around me each with their own qualities and places but this guy sure has won my heart over with all his love and efforts! I always wish that i could repay him all my love and feelings but my bad that i am not doing it to that extent where i should!

Anyways this is jazzy signing off!

Love you all!


And Jay this post id exclusively for you babe!

And the song really express my feelings LOL

*Charri mujhay Yaari teri Aesay jaisay daaru desi*

The Guy whom everyone can dream off to be with!

It's been days I have talking to this most amazing and cutiest soul over on this earth called Adrian khaan! I don't add people in my this Gay profile as well but his thoughts his creativity has made me crave to get his phunk and essence in my life so i added that guy out! The more I am knowing him the more I am falling for him! Honestly anyone in this universe can fall for him he has this heart he has this personality with him! I so love the time when we talk when he passes me his innocent smiles when he talks when he texts me up when he shares his issues with me when he do it all...


I am blessed having this guy in my life.. And i dont wanna loose him in any case!


Good wishes for him already

With this Jazzy signing off!

Ramadan mubarik to whole ummat-e-Muslimaah!

Wishing all of my friends and their family and their friends a very happy and amazing Ramadan! May Allah forgive us all and bless us with the best of all! Keep praying for all, stay blessed and happy!


With love to all!

Jazzy Signing Off!

The day I have lost me, my happiness and the reason to live!

Lately, I was texting to my ex boyfriend whom i had this wonderful relationship but we were talking like good friends I swear to God there was nothing in between us there was just normal talkings in between us.. He said he wants to meet me i said i'll be free in evening come see me and you need to take me out at dinner as punishment he agreed and he came to me by evening. He was sitting in my room and we were having these discussions and I told him that i am in love with Aron and we are like very close to each other I told him that i tend to help him through all the facts and stuffs.. Apparently i had seen these awful reactions on his face which were telling me that he doesnot like me being in love with any other guy around! He said he is always with me and would always be i hugged him and I kissed him on his cheeks! We were talking and laughing suddenly he hugged me and i could feel his beatings in that hug whatsoever!

Apparently i said why is your heart being so fast? He replied because i am with him that's why I was like what is happening i was lying on his lap and he tried to kiss me on lips i avoided it by turning my face he tried it many times he tried to unbutton me i was unbuttoned half and i asked him is this what he wants from me? He said he dont know I replied it's just the excitement of 5 minutes after that there would be the doom and just doom.. I slapped him too he came back in his way and after that he started crying and said if he could have my shoulders i gave him! I supported him he left from my house!


After that i got so tensed that i got this so low Bp and i took these pills sleeping one's and i was like too high to handle, family and friends took me to hospital in the scene my Boss (zee) came to know about my condition and he tried to approach me in the same night i dint know because i was unconscious at that time the very next day when i saw my phone i got like dozens of miscalls from him I called him back and on the other side it was his mom saying that he is in hospital and he met from a terrible accident yesterday! I was like what the hell just happened!


I was trying to approach aron since evening but he is busy somewhere and i know that he is busy somewhere! I was so lonely and I wasn't even forgetting it i got a message from my very own bhai (samuel khan) a net friend but he is my brother now that he is going away from all of us he has deleted all his accounts and switched off his cellphone!


In the end it's just something i would say that i am very bad as a son, as a brother, as a lover moreover as a friend! I don't know what is my fault either!

I am still in a very bad health and my mind is stuck and i have these tears in my eyes!

Jazzy badly needs your support

With this I'm signing off!

Feet and feelings!

These days I am having some of the most beautiful days of my life, few days ago i was sitting with Zee (My boss) at "White Dining Lounge MM Alam Road Lahore" which indeed is a great place and we were having this so amazing discussions and i was trying to council him on so many issues he was facing these days. I was sitting and i got tired so i placed my feet on another chair and i was using  my cellphone and i got these wonderful wordings from Zee "You got these so beautiful feet, how clean and clear are they, I wanna touch them" I said Zee I am embarrassed already he said I am not kidding I wanna touch them!

With this he holdedmy feet and put them on his lap and started playing with them i was so enjoying his activities people were staring us and he was like not giving a damn to anyone around and I was feeling his touch so intensely k i have no words! I asked Zee up with all the courage I had, that what do he thinks about me as in what is his feeling for me knowing the thing that he has a girlfriend for 4 years now. He said he likes to be with me he wants to be around me all the time I understand him so good and take care of him too that he cant imagine staying aside from me now. I got worried and told him about my sexual orientation and the fact that i am dating Aron ATM and i am in love with him too and Aron loves me too! he was like too shocked and apparently sad too couldn't see him sad like that so i kissed his forehead and i said sorry to him and asked him if we could leave now! he said okay lets sit in car now!

We were sitting in car and he said Jazzy come with me lets go to london together and get settled there i will take care of you and be mine. I replied to him that you are a perfect human being and you could literally make anyone fall for you I certainly am no match for you you can find millions out there! I myself would find someone for you!

With this he dropped me back he was sad i kinda hugged him and kissed on his cheeks and made him feel better, i talk to him regularly and crazily and that's what he actually wants

Cheers 
Jazzy signing off!

Officially with each other!

Today I was on date with Aron, yeah my boyfriend all of you know them already! I have told him everything A to Z about my insecurities and the things i came to know about him Lately! And he said all of the things are right and he told me the truth! I am pretty comfortable by now and happy too!






Anyways the thing I wanted to share is pretty special and good too, I was talking to aron and I got a call from mama that she needs to go somewhere and I need to come back to house now, I took aron with me and we have decided that we are going at my place to meet my Mama and Brother and my Bhabi( brother's wife) we went home and he talked to mama and shared things like and i offered him servings and all that on getting free i asked mama that should i take him to my room i need to share things with him, I took him to my room and I shared my Childhood album and my very close diary with him! he had seen all of my Ex Girlfriends and stuffs and we talked like crazily and than we had this family dinner together and after that we came back to our room before that i showed him all of my house and stuffs!

And back in my room i asked aron to lie on my lap, he said that the door is open what would mama and people think off, with this i locked up the room and he was here on my lap and we were talking, playing and i was kissing on his eyes cheeks forehead and lips even, I asked him if he wants to get physical with me he was ready i was ready we got so romantic that i have no words, obviously we dint have sex either way I have asked him that if he loves me he said he sure do love me and wants me.. I am so happy after so long i have been waiting for these words and finally heard them! It made my day!

now it's a new beginning and stuffs!

With this
Jazzy signing off!

The Guy who had this seducive physique and voice

Last night I was on a date with a guy named Zaibuu! And he have this awesomly awesome built muscular body and he had this so soothing voice as well + was his height and his complexion tone OMG he was like every gay could fantasize off! We had this plan of watching a movie togethor and somehow it got canceled due to some issues so we went to Food Street for dinner! By chance i texted Aron that where he is and he was too at food street! I replied him that OMG i am too at food street he asked me with whom should he come to meet me? I said i have told you naa k there is a gay friend of mine who wants to meet me and all that.. He came by and both of them met as well had a chit chat sessions and stuffs! Apparently i met Aron's cousins and friends too who were sitting at the end of courtyard! So things were all normal!Anyways lets turn the post back to topic, I was dating the guy Zaibu and we had that lovely dinner and chit chat sessions which i liked actually. On the way back we sat in a park, and he asked me general things and at a sudden he asked me that would i like to get physical with him as he likes me too much i replied as if i dont think so if it's the appropriate time for it! he said why is it so what is the reason If he is not attractive? If it's like he is not like the person i want to be with, or like that emotional stuffs, i said you are good looking hot and attractive + you are decent but this isn't something which make me fall for you and actually gives me a strong base to get physical with you see! so please dont force me! with these saying i took his leave and left him all the way he is! He knew me much i don't know why he wanted me to get physical with him..


But I am happy that i dint cheat on Aron afterall, knowing that still we are in the mid of nowhere!


With this Jazzy signing off!

The Boss every one desires for

Like the topic of the post i have this boss who is super hot and happening he is like of 6 2 height athlete and fait too, that i have no words to describe it. It's been two weeks i have joined this office and i am like over whelmed by the people treat me all the girls and boys too now my Boss as well!


This apparently looks odd but that's how it is whole office calls him like Sire or Boss but when it comes to me he doesn't allow me to say him Sir he always insists to call him Like by his nick Zee (Which by chance is generated by me) as well. *_*

A night before yesterday my boss called me up and asked at 12vish mid of the night what am I doing? I said i am in bed and trying to sleep what about you! He said get up we need to go somewhere right now I said are you sure about it he said I am. Anyhows i got ready and he came to my place and picked me up he took me to subway and we been sitting there for like hours he was tensed because of his family and I helped him up by that emotional support and certain advices as well and he asked me that how old I'm i told him I'm 21 he said OMG you are amazing Jazzy i wasn't expecting people of your age can be that deep you have mentality of like 30ish, I said its my honor! We left the place and it was a nice time actually!

Whole night  got his texts whats up and stuffs! I replied to all of them humbly LOL! it was fun doing it haha. The other day which is by chance is the news of yesterday i have this important meeting with PEMRA and boss was with me. He owns this new Honda Civic Reborn in that silky silver color *Satisify the situation* Haha ;)
I reached to office everybody was reaching to the PEMRA by his own transportation thingy and i was too going towards my car, at a sudden someone called me from behind and guess who it was Zee. LOL
I turned back and he said what if I join him in his car to office I said umm sir i have car ill reach by myself and you go please thank you for the offer! With this answer he hold me from my hand took me to his car opened up the door for me and asked me to sit as he is my Boss i did it! he closed it and we went out we been talking like way out of the limits and shughal(fun) etc i had to present and zee supported me really well we ended up with big round of applause and left the office it was noon and he asked me let's go eat somewhere i said as you wish, he took me to Avari Lahore for lunch and than dropped me back! On his way back he told me i got this so sexy voice and comforting that he could hear it for hours continuously.. I was blushing like hell!

He texts me calls me every time and i feel embarrassed sometimes LOL

This jazzy is signing off!

Best wishes everyone

In the mid of nowhere!

Yesterday i was at model town park with a friend of mine.. We became friends from facebook since january and trust me we been talking and talking since that time we are more than friends for each other this was the first ever meeting of us! Khair it was a random thing to do we were sitting in the park and told him that i have fallen in love with someone. He said OMG Jazzy how is that possible? How come who is he? What does he do?  And things related to that! By chance Marib knew aron in person since last year i dint know it at all! After half an hour i told him aron is the guy i am in relationship with me!
He was shocked as in are you sure jazzy? I said yes i am sure yar he told me many things aron the internal one's because he's been talking to him for about an year now I was shocked to hear about the things about him.
In the mean time aron called me up and i have asked him up that If he loves me and all that he said he sure do! My friend was sitting with me at that time and I was talking to him on loudspeaker so yes he could hear all the conversation actually. He told me that aron is lying with me i told him lets clear it because i trust marib and i trust aron both!

I asked marib to text aron that he wants to meet him! He did the same on reply aron said to him yeah why not he is free at the moment i am not that possessive guy i said to marib to go for a meeting and check whether he do sex with you! I dropped him at the decided place with in 30 mins marib texted me to pick him back. I did so whatsoever and he told me Congratulations, as he have some good and some bad news! I asked what is it he said Aron said he is trying to get committed with someone and in that case (It's me) while is that he still has his last boyfriend with him these days!this is somehow confusing me! The good thing is aron took marib to his room and he has done nothing with him except a friendly hug! which is normal too!


Now that i am in the mid of nowhere i love that guy and he knows that! I am broken I am anticipated i am away from this world since last night!


With Best Wishes
Your Jazzy signing off!

I would like to have all of your support!