I have been busy in things like i never thought i would ever be able to go that busy anywhere in my life but yes I became one..I have been thinking and thinking like as one of the cheapos that I should be doing something creative and something extravagant and i should be focusing on any issue related to society on which I can do work. So in that deep thinking session i was collaborating all of my thinking capabilities and inner self on a mutual platform to get over some social issue. As love for Human rights is one of the thing which has taken and grown over me Insanely during all those years since i was a kid of merely 4 year old.. I love been an activist and doing or participating in the reason of becoming any sort of positive relation or change in society..
I have already done a research project on "Prostitutes In Pakistan" back in late 2010 and on that research report a US based NGO started working in Pakistan for the welfare of those women who wanted to start there life by a new beginning and wanted to quit from this prostitute related work. Well I was really not alone whole team of HR commission was there to guide me, I had chosen that topic to work upon because i always thought that this is one sensitive topic people dont like to touch because of some of our cultural and maulana barriers. I faced many issues on working on this platform but yes i coped up well from them.
Now putting my Past experiences on one hand and an inspiration to do something untouched once again i asked one of my female friend whom i am open about my sexual orientation that on which topic i should work upon. She said "Are you up for some real messy fun?" I on a glance replied to her "*&#@ Yeah and what is going in your mind i can smell something is fishy here" She said "Work on LGBT rights in Pakistan this is one right time for you to work on it or at least think on doing some work on it" I considering the fact that she happens to be straight and I mean she is a girl as well how would she think like that but inner me i loved that idea i told her "that YES i am gonna work on it but how would i do that there are People who are already working on that how would I make any difference in that, how can I make my idea unique in this so clustering phase of homosexuality" She replied that " You are good at writing, Write aware people teach 'em"
I took that as an idea to start with I asked few of my very close queer friends of mine that what do they think. Majority of them proposed me to write a story of my love life and focusing on some of the social issues among it I should make a movie on it or a play but make it on an artisitic approach, I started writing and i am still doing it. I met few people Ofcourse from my community and I asked them that what do they is there any possibility for me to give my idea or thinking a physical shape all of them already loved the idea because almost majority of us usually face the same dramatic issues likewise or so.. But they also warned me on the consequences or so and the consequences were more than practical too..
1. Even if I be able to write a story make a script how would i convince a producer to work on it? How would i bear the criticism on this movie? Would critics allow cinemas to put this movie on Air?
Funds? Actors? Duh
2. If I make a Play on it which is more feasible btw.. Still than i could face severe critism not only social pressure my family can leave me on knowing that i am doing things for LGBT rights most probably i can be sued in court for spreading this vulgarity or atleast thats what people would call this awareness to be.. And the list keeps going on.
Moreover who would fund it.. and who would support this messy thing?
3. I can write a book on it but i left that option already because in Pakistan people are not so fond of reading and spending on books and again i can face lawsuit on writing on major sensitive issue..I am starting from scratch and yes i know one thing i wanna do work on this issue that is what i am sure upon i agree on buying all the issues too. There are people who are far more higher in both age and experience from me and i want them to advice me as much as they can and i want them to help me out in this particular thing!
With this Jazzy signing off till the next time!
